I wish I never said anything.

I'm still on an emotional roller coaster, which is partly my fault. I just know that I really love this guy, and the thought of him ignoring me for the rest of the semester is unfathomable right now. It would really really suck! I wish I could predict the future so I'd know what move to make now, but I can't. Life is simply unpredictable. Now I feel like I'm about to start crying because I keep thinking about him. I'm afraid of losing our friendship. And I just feel bad now like I've done something wrong even though I know I haven't. That's why I've come to the conclusion that sometimes it's really better to keep your mouth shut. I really wish I never said anything. I wish I never kissed back. I just don't know what to do.