Yesterday, I purposely missed work cause I thought If get enough sleep. I'll feel better but I still feel it roaming around my head. I don't think I want to hurt myself but I think about it and that scares me more. What if I'm capable of doing it? It would hurt my family. Yes, that's what I'm going to think from now on. It would hurt them badly so I will try to avoid to go there. I never want to go there.